As the year comes to a close, we all get to look back on the
year and reminisce of what happened that was life changing, both good and bad.
Every year starts with new hope to have a fresh start. As the year progresses,
most of us experience the good, bad, and the ugly for an entire year. We can’t
relive the past, but we can learn from it, and we must use that knowledge to
push forward in the future. That’s what this trip to Cincinnati taught me.
My Alma Mater, Cincinnati Christian University (Cincinnati
Bible College) has closed its doors as of December 20, 2019. As I walked around
my campus on my first day here this weekend and took photos, all I could think
of was how much that university poured into my life. Every place has its flaws.
I had my own failures and failed relationships, but I tried to learn and am
still learning from them. As I walked, I could not help but to keep saying,
“Why didn’t they ask for help?” Whether it was financially, or advice with
extra curricular activities, I wish they had asked for help from all kinds of
people and institutions. Pride leads to a fall.
Then, I thought of how many tangled up situations I find
myself and wonder why I didn’t ask for help. I have plenty of resources to seek
to ask for help, and yet many times my pride keeps me from asking. This next
year, I’m learning from my past and I will seek help and advice from all kinds
of people and institutions in order to keep growing because pride leads to a
fall.
This last summer, I visited my hometown, Daytona Beach,
Florida. Although I am now a tourist there, I reflected on my life growing up
in that little city. So much has changed in my hometown. My high school is gone
and a new building takes its place with a statue honoring the man who gave
money to rebuild it, the NBA star, Vince Carter. The town grew up with new
stores and restaurants. I grew up too.
When I lived in Florida, I chose to believe the lies that
others said about me and to me. I chose to listen to the wrong voices giving me
bad advice and had to remember the right voices many years later. I blamed
other people for my bad choices. I will take with me in the future to listen to
the right voices when I seek the help and advice. I will not live with rules
and regulations, but with a freedom that Christ gives me in my life.
As sad as it is that my college has closed, it’s refreshing
to know that many of my college friends are still walking with Jesus and
leading others to Him. Christianity is
not dying. It’s growing and with growth comes change. Those of us who use a
20/20 vision will be able to lead the people who live in our current generation
to Jesus. We will have learned from our past to push forward into the future.
Whatever this year, 2019, has thrown at you, looking back
and being reflective gives direction for both the good and the bad. So much has
happened in one year. I know that a decade is passing. I’m choosing to take one
moment at a time. I can look back at the past and reflect to grow and be
present with wisdom and bring that into the future to make the world a better
place. I hope we all choose to reflect and then use that reflection for growth
and change. I hope we can step into the future with humility and wisdom. May
the reflection of the past give us 20/20 vision for the present and the future.